My phones never rings anymore
Three and a half years of my life wasted . When we met I had reservations about our age difference . But after you told me you loved my , I was in heaven . I fell for you hard . You didn’t have much money and you were young . I took care of you . I payed for all our trips . I helped you in many times of needs . Because , well that what you do when you love someone . Now you are doing well opening your own business your own barbershop . I payed for your school helped you set it up . And now after all this time you have no time for me . I feel like a fool . I cry daily I’m so depressed . I don’t even want to live at times . I am a mess and you don’t give a shit . Did you ever love me ? Or did you just like me taking care of you ? I am so sad so hurt , I often go to sleep and pray I don’t wake up . A few nights ago I was staring at my meds and was hold a pill bottle in my hands and I was trying to get the courage to end ny suffering . But I could not do it . But it hasn’t left my mind