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WHY ?

What did you want me to do ? Should I have given you my blessings ?  Should I have been happy ? Happy for what ? Because you no longer cared ? Because you no longer loved me ? Yet you ask why ? Why did I do what I did , why was I so cruel ? Why why why ? I hated you for what you did to me ! I hated you for not loving me . But it's all a distant memory to me now . And yet you still ask why. How many times I wished for the courage to put a bullet in my brain . How many times I wanted no more . How many nights I pray the lord my soul to take . Yet you still ask why . Why ? I don't know why . I hated you and the world . I hated my self because I still loved you as well .  It's all in the past I have told myself . Now  I live my life for today and try not to cry for yesterday .  The tears still come and at times I don't know why .  Why do I love you so ? Why did my heart not let go ?  Six feet underground I still won't know . Why why why !

My drug

Your love is  a drug , I need it I desire it I devour it. My body aches for your touch , my heart deep with emotion, I give you all my devotion. The blood boils in my veins , I can't stand the pain for your love holds the reins. Your love is my high , it's  my drug of choice. My mind it won't rest, longs the sound of your voice. My heart is a prisoner of this love that I seek, I stand tall I am strong . Why do I feel so weak? This drug is my blight, this drug feels so right , this drug brings me comfort ,brings me joy, in the solace of night. Your body I desire your love I require , I long for the taste when we love not in haste. Intertwined with emotion with our body's in motion. This drug that I take is the love that we make. This drug is so strong , this drug can't be wrong. It's the drug that I long and my love now you own !

The night we met

Across the floor she looked at me , my body captured I couldn’t flee.   She called for me and my life was bright , I never will , forget that night.   Her touch so tender, her warm caress , I fell for her I will confess.   Her stance demands attention , her strength was my affection.   Enthralled I was to see , this lovely girl, she was for me.   Exuding confidence , assuring style . Yet knowing all the while.   This night was not to last , the future though, it now was cast.   The next few nights I couldn't wait , the call from her I hesitate.   The next few years I will remember , the joyous moments I hold so tender.   When future comes and life is gone , my thoughts of you will still live on.   My love is yours and your to hold , just think of me when you are cold.   I don't know when , I don't know how , but I promise then I promised now.   My spirit will , watch over you . And now after all these years I wish I had never taken that turn on the road that led to my life
Love absolute , it's the stuff that fairy tales are made of , or is it ? It is difficult to comprehend how an individual may feel this way about another . When you love without question there are no need for answers . I like to think of love as a triangle . A triangle made up of three elements , honesty , respect and understanding . If just one of these elements is missing it's impossible to move forward . Trust is earned but easily lost . Understanding comes from having an open mind and a great deal of patience . Respect comes from the heart , the love you feel for another metamorphoses into respect . These I believe are key elements and the basis for all successful relationships . How then do so many relationships fail ? Seems so easy to just walk away from conflict . When entering a relationship you must have faith and a bit of hope . When you enter into a loving committed partnership , you need to detach yourself from the statistical data's . You can not give your

My shame

How do you forget the past? How do you let go of the hurt? How can I stop the pain? I long for days gone by. Days when dreams we shared . Days when future plans included more than one. How can I feel so much love and feel so much pain. The tears come without warning.You have so much anger towards me till this day. I have fought so hard to forget.I know I can't just pretend but I also know , I can't go through this again! God I have dreamed of the moment when my lips feel yours. When my hand caresses your skin.When our bodies entwined into one.How I have dreamed of the moment when you whisper , I love you . My heart fails to control it's rhythm every time my eyes set on yours.You fail to see , to see the love , the deep and utter admiration. You fail to see , to see my adoration , the adulation the affection the allegiance! you do not see how my heart melts how my belly aches how my eyes fill with the tears of joy. You just can not see me at all. You look at me and see t

Forgiveness

Under cover of dark in my subconscious mind , I lived in a world that was left far behind. When I dream of what was and what isn't today . I look at you now and I pray you will stay . Seems so hard that you will , ever trust in me now . I would give you my word ,I just don't know how . You no longer need me nor require my essence , many times did I wish God would just make his presence. I felt pain I felt sorrow and at times did I think there's no hope for tomorrow . When you left and my life ,it just fell apart, I still feel the pain of the scars here in my heart . Once the sky was so blue but now constantly grey, I drop down on my knee and I pray, pray pray pray. I can promise you love , forgiveness and pleasure . Protect you respect you , your love always I'll treasure . Please don't be my judge , or my jury today . For my heart's filled with love it will not ever stray . How I longed your embrace or a smile on your face . Just a simple hello , not a d

I AM SORRY

How I wish I could hold you and feel the warmth of your smile. And I can’t help but wonder did I dream all the while. How I longed for your touch and the air you respire. I was sure the forgotten and my love not required. Now my heart it is broken for the words that I’ve spoken. Though forgiveness is futile I will still say I’m sorry. When my body is ashes and my son tells the story. In my eyes he was perfect for her love he would worry. In the depths of his sorrows or the strength of his glory.

MY HEART ACHE

The ache that I feel is the shame that I carry. Though my love was for real you will always be weary. I can’t change what the past was of the future you worry. You may never forgive me and my heart it feels heavy. You were all that I wanted but I only neglected. In my eyes you’re the child that I always protected. Now my eyes they are filled, with the tears that I cry. And can’t help but wonder , why why why ?

What you mean to me

You are the moon in my night You are the shine to my light You are the strength to my might. - You are the air that I breathe You are the blood that I bleed You are the love that I heed. - You are my left to my right You are the fight to my blight You are the words that I write. - You are the one I adore You are the one I want more You are the one evermore. - You are the song to my choir You are the one I require THE ONLY ONE I DESIRE ! I love you ........ -

A DREAM THAT I DREAM

I dream of a dream , I dream in a way, I dream of a dream and for ever you'll stay. I dream of a place so far away, where my heart is fulfilled and my love does not stray. I dream of a time when your love was so real, I dream of a life when you held me so dear. I dream of the past and the future unclear, I dream of a dream and I still have you near. I dream and I pray for your love to be here,I dream and I hope for a love I won't fear. I dream of a dream where my heart does not ache, I dream and I pray for the Lord my soul take. I dream of a dream where my eyes do not cry, my head knows the truth but my heart knows not why. I dream of a dream , of the love that I feel, a love without question with devotion so clear. I dream of a dream and your love I reclaim, I dream of a dream when you call I out my name.

Because you needed to know

FOR ALL THESE REASONS AND MORE, I LOVE YOU. When I hear your name, my heart skips a beat. When I hear you speak, you make me feel weak. When I see your face, I can’t look away. When I see you smile, I’m a child at play. When I look in your eyes, I see what I had. When you walk away, I feel nothing but sad. When I look in my heart I see no one but you. When I look in my soul I see love ever true. When I lay down to sleep in my dreams you will play, I pray and I pray that for ever you’ll stay. If it’s only in dreams that your mine for the take, than I pray to the Lord may I never awake!