Lonely days sleepless nights. Thoughts running through my mind. How I missed you , how I longed for you. Many tears , would fill an ocean . Eyes red and face tired . God how I loved you! I know those days are gone and still I cry , I cry in silence . Desperate pleas . I pray and I beg our dear Lord . I ask time and time again ,why can't she love me ? Why ,won't she love ? No longer needed I feel . Time did not stand still for you . you lived life and you loved another .But my love did not waiver . My heart still in pain . I have reached out , I have said and done all I can . Still you don't love me . Time you say , time is all you need , you say it's too soon .
Years and years have gone , I am feeling old and not looking younger . So many years wasted. I would give twenty years to get the last ten back if I could only share them with you .
If I had a wish!
I wish to go away. Run from my problems and hide for a day. Forget all my worries and leave them behind, forget they exit and freedom is mine. Alone on a journey, a journey of hope, a trip full of wonder and not the end of a rope. Peace is what I am after. Happiness ever after. Depression my worst foe anxiety it has its hold. That is what I fear and I fear it the most, is there no escape to a land with the most. I fear for my family, I fear for my friends, I think of my problems, will they ever end. I raise my cup and I make a toast, I have one drink and feel I want this, I want this the most. I dream of a land so far away, a land full of wonder and a land without hate. . Is there such a place? Is there any hope? I stay optimistic but I want one more smoke. It is killing me, that I know, but I long for the drink and I long for the smoke. I want to get away leave it behind, the pain the suffering but mostly the wine. What a dream, a dream to be hold, a dream nonetheless, and a dream to...
Hello. logged in after a long time...a sadness filled my heart to see this post,hope everything is okay with you now?
ReplyDeleteCheers,
Autre